Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Peads made me writing today..

Salam...

I'm here again after months disappear. Huhu... Means that I cant be a blogger actually.. Just writing when I want... Hmmmm...

Peadiatric posting made me to be here and writing today.. n my 3rd last entry was also about pead, But it was a year ago.. Too long rite?

NVM, what I want to share here is my journey in peadiatric posting.. Woohooo... For me, pead posting is the most tough posting in year 5. At first, I'm very excited to be in pead posting, but day from day, I became more stressful and felt like I'm never in peads posting anymore before. SOB SOB.. My major weakness is in physical examination, I'm depressed when I failed the 1st short case class. Then, I got the borderline for 2nd short case and again failed for 3rd short case.. very sad.. What to do?? Crying?? Down feeling??? Isolated myself?? N the worse was I'm still thinking why I'm in medicine though in 5th year already?

Alhamdulillah... Though I felt down n had bad mood most of time, it had motivated me to do better n studying harder. Try to appreciate Signs that I saw n being thinking person. Hmmm.. I'm not genius, I need to learn repeatedly to remembered n understanding it. Keep repeat n repeat.

Another episode of worry is exam. Exam was in 5th week n we only had 4 week to revise pead. I had both long and short case on the 1st day. Huhu... Happy or not?? I'm happy becoz can finish it early, but anxiety made me not happy. Anxiety to be in exam.. I'm worried I could not do the best in exam.

N yesterday, I already finished the exam. Hmmm... I'm very very worried wif my short cases. I put wrong estimated age for DA. Ya Allah!! I tried to be calm but that thing always crossed my mind.  The result will come out after CNY, before starting O&G posting. But I'm still hope I can pass it. I need a calm feeling for entering O&G. Amin.

By the way, I still enjoying to be wif children. They are very cute!! Hope U will get well soon all my boboys and gegurls!!

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